Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with severe pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest unusual treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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